I'm building all these steps just so I can fall down
I've got a million different reasons to hate myself into the ground
And if I was a smarter man I'd teach myself not to drown

I'm not in love with failure
But it fucks me everywhere I go
It's one of those confounding relationships
Where you don't want anybody to know
But in the darkness with some privacy
Like some government conspiracy
I sit motionless, open arms
C'mon, defile me
And with overdramatic zest
I'll carve a broken heart into my chest
So I can mock myself indefinitely
This would definitely be testing me
On whether a constant reminder
Can ever be overcome
On whether I'm willing to keep trying
And take my shirt off and sit in the sun
Where all these rays come to punish
The tissue that holds me together
Where I can learn to face the fact
That nothing will last forever
Not this skin, not these words
Not this embarrassing tattoo
Not a god damn thing that you or I
Will ever fucking do
So I climb up to the top
And stare into the sun
Letting my retinas burn
As I consider what I've begun
A calamity a tragedy
Like I'm Shakespeare's progeny
Without the pretty words
To make the world want to see

I'm building all these steps just so I can fall down
I've got a million different reasons to hate myself into the ground
And if I was a smarter man I'd teach myself not to drown

This isn't a cry for help
It's not a form of escapism
It's putting a bare foot on the ground
And feeling it's cold realism
It's erasing every pencil mark
It's deleting every file
It's learning to grow up
And stop being so juvenile
And as my feet become more callous
With every single step
I might be able to find that bliss
They say the ignorant are so adept
At basking in the glory of
Resulting in the story, love
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Is for those dreaming heads-
Not the scientist or the skeptic
Or any of these cynics that all need med kits
To keep track of their daily pills
So that waking doesn't make them ill
I don't any medications
I'm tired of examinations
I just wanna live forever
Is that too much to ask
Because I don't expect a damn thing
I never asked for anything
I'm always going to be polishing
This ball and chain
Because I don't expect a damn thing
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Don't expect a damn thing-

I'm building all these steps just so I can fall down
I've got a million different reasons to hate myself into the ground
And if I was a smarter man I'd teach myself not to drown

I don't wanna settle for
I'm tired of these closing doors
I'm always staring at the floor
I'm trying not to anymore
I'm feeling like a dinosaur
Where eating is a hopeless chore
But hoping little kids adore
The architect that keeps the store
A beautiful sight for them I'm sure
With all of it's grace
Romantic allure
Ideas and bricks 
Create contour
Parting clouds
Like we all can score
Building wings like cracked out whores
But every feather we've plucked we tore
And now our arms are way too sore
To keep us moving up and towards
What's on TV
What's on Tv
What's on TV
Not reality
So I'm building all these steps
Building all these steps
Building all these steps
Building all these steps
Building all these steps

I'm building all these steps just so I can fall down
I've got a million different reasons to hate myself into the ground
And if I was a smarter man I'd teach myself not to drown

And if I'm building all these steps
Why am I not a smarter man